Spiritual Transformation: Opening Up a Contraction
By Ellen Luksch
- Wednesday, March 31st, 2010
I have been noticing my mind’s reactions to what it considers periods of contraction. Periods of contraction look like slow financial flow, recoveries from injuries or illness, job loss, relationship loss, loss period. I notice that loss is a way my mind perceives life when its expectations aren’t met. Once my mind interprets loss, it creates a definite emotional reaction in my body, read tight solar plexus or sore throat, or a sinking feeling in the gut or “who put the ice around my heart?” Then my mind wants to start the process of contracting on the contraction, read “oh no!”, “what if?”, “what now?”, or “what then?” I see my mind creating feelings of more and more separation from the flow. “What flow?” “The flow of life, of love, of abundance. “ It separates and wants to know why. It separates and wants to know who or what is responsible for that separation… lover, boss, friend, foe or God. Perhaps, there is even something I have done wrong to make this turn of events what it is. My judge surfaces. My mind wants to fight. My mind wants the quick fix. My mind wants to jump-start the next expansion.
Ahhhhh. Every contraction brings an opportunity to see the stories I have created in my emotional memory with great clarity. Nothings like a good contraction to bring old, unconscious fear to awareness. Those parts of us scream if the contraction is tight enough. All the old anger, blaming, fear, hurt and judgment rise to the surface. All the feelings we resist and hold hostage and deny, rush out of their closets to get a breath of air. It’s about being a human blessed with a highly developed survival-based fear brain embedded in a brain wired to tell stories.
I now have a choice. It is a choice to experience the flow that I am by allowing the energy of emotion to move through the blockades my mind has constructed. I can gently encourage those parts I’ve denied to come to the surface because I have invited them. I can create an open field that welcomes the dialog so I am no longer run over by emotions escaping a locked closet. By attending to those inner contractions from the point of view of acceptance instead of belief or of denial, those contractions begin to transform themselves. The beauty is that giving those emotions my full acceptance allows a miracle to happen. When that energy flows, it jump-starts feelings of freedom, creativity, compassion and joy. So, as Miguel’s fifth agreement states, “Be skeptical, but learn to listen.” You just might hear the thread of the story that opens you to the fear beneath the anger, the hurt beneath the blaming, the part of you that needs to be seen, not believed, but seen nakedly and honestly so that forgiveness, release and flow can happen. Once my internal flow begins, my external flow follows. Once again, I am connected to my whole self and therefore connected to my whole life and the feeling of expansion is the result.
A contraction is an opportunity to notice its source of creation. How can we ever be separate from the life flow that is what we are? We never can be but we can certainly perceive and then feel that way. It is possible to see the expansions and the contractions as a love letter. It is possible to appreciate the perfection of a system that allows such healing and expansion to happen. If we say so.
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